i'm not normal. i thought i just had a breathing problem, but the doctor needed to check and see if there was anything else that could be contributing to it. so he took my blood to test, and luckily i don't have anemia. but now he doesn't know what the deal is with my breathing. tune in next week when i fill you in on the new prognosis!

going back to cali
yeah, i think so. in may. i'm so excited!! and my kuya had better not be out of town when i get there...

it's friday (hey!) and i'm ready to swing...
sabby and i got our nails done wednesday after work and talk about claws! damn our nails look good! my esthetician is awesome. but what a chore it was to get used to them. wednesday night i couldn't type faster than a 2nd grader, but now i'm back to par... tonight sabby and i are going to a dragon boat fundraiser. i think the team's called m-power... yeah, they got a bmw dealership to sponsor them. anyways it's at that infamous club purple onion that i'm always complaining about. well, at least the company is going to be good. tomorrow i'm going to take my little cousin rafael to watch ice age. we're both the last of our friends who hasn't seen it yet (funny, his friends and my friends are like 14 years apart!). then we'll eat lunch, then play some ps2... woohoo! talk about some good fun... and i just love that i don't work on fridays!

dammit
i can't find a working reblogger! i'm going to bed.

how come you don't call me?...
friday, i was doing my usual thing, trying to figure out which lakad* i should do first... i had the option of going to the arts county fair at ubc to watch swollen members, baby blue soundcrew and choclair perform, or to purple onion where dj jazzy jeff (yes, as in the one with "the fresh prince") was spinning, or to legends for the grand opening of this hiphop night (fabulous fridays). the arts county fair i couldn't attend cuz i ended up having to work in the afternoon... poo. and the peeps i thought i'd hit purple onion with ended up being too inebriated from the fair that they couldn't make it out. so my super crazy friday ended up with me relaxing and dressing nice so i could go to legends with sabz, rick and biggie. it wasn't too bad for the first night. it's a bit classier than the old starfish gig we used to always hit (good times, good times!). but even before that, palladium was the place to be... ahhh, now those were the days.
anyways, after the club, i pulled out my phone to check the time and what happened? the tip of the antenna broke off. i don't have to tell you that i own a startac. yes the antenna's crap, but i have to say that mine is one that lasted for almost 2 years. funny, i think it's just on the first couple digital startacs that the antenna is not as solid. at least i still have an antenna... now it's just stuck inside my phone. other than that, i really don't have any big complaints. i'll just have a harder time getting reception in those "barely there" reception areas.

(*lakad litterally means walk... in this case, it means plans ex. "anong lakad mo?" translates to "what are your plans?"... dig it?)

troubles...
i think i'm going to take voice classes. i've found that with my hopefully temporary lung problem i get short of breath most after i'm running or talking. yeah yeah, laugh if you will, but it's true. i just talk that much. the thing is, i want to have the right breathing technique so when i sing, i won't get so short of breath too. i came to this conclusion after i went to karaoke last night with the usual crew. yeah, my singing was pretty hurt for someone who doesn't usually sound so bad. argh, it looks like a long road for me... a.k.a. the girl who was built like a ford...

i g-g-g-got it...
k, i think that's the name of that jagged edge, jd and nas song... but yeah that is one good song. it's got that infectious beat that makes you wanna just dance. i was rereading my last blog entry and you know, the way i wrote it really reflected how my weekend felt. now that i got some music on, i think i can write a bit more enthusiastically. it's real weird how music can just influence your emotions so easily. well, it does that to me...
so yeah, i'm in the middle of discussing with ron about going to cali in may. well, i've actually had to discuss with several people about that... lots of us want to go, but we just can't get in synch (woah, i used the term "in synch" without having to refer to the boy band!). hopefully everything works out... we'll see. all i know is that i gotta visit my kuya out there. i haven't seen him since august and that's already been too long! i used to go down there all the time, but now time is a lot less free for me than it was last year. it's kinda sucky but i guess it balances out in other ways...

...
so this past long weekend was pretty sedate. i guess it being the holy-est part of "holy week" is the only explanation i got. i almost forgot that fun was supposed to be a big no-no for the whole week, not just from thursday til saturday. see, waaay back in the day, the thursday before good friday (a.k.a. holy thursday) was when jesus had his last supper, so we (as in catholics) have to be real solemn that day, cuz jesus knew he was going to die the next day... that being good friday, where we are supposed to not have any fun, cuz we gotta think about jesus dying for the sins of man. as my friend aimee put it "it's a day when you think about what you've done, and what you're gonna do about it." well, either way, those two days are the most unexciting, unfun days of the whole year for a catholic. i don't really mind it cuz it ain't so bad that we gotta just stay at home and chill... everyone lives such fast-paced lives nowadays, that taking a day or two out really doesn't hurt at all. besides, sunday was easter so we all partied it up. i got to hide eggs for a little easter egg hunt for my little cousins and some other family friends' children, then we all ate a big dinner. as for today, i went shopping with my friend ivan... i just bought a plain white gap t-shirt. i figure if i want to go clubbing, i usually just want to wear comfy clothing anyways. add some blue jeans and my cortezes and ta-da... another classic outfit!

YAY!
one night a while back, the family was just sitting around in the kitchen after dinner, watching some show. nothing too exciting. anyhow, we (the daughters) were getting a bit restless and were wondering when our friends would be calling to ask us to go out. just before we all decided to get up and leave, a hallmark card commercial came on that caught our attention. a boy went up to a girl in the playground and recited a poem to her. it went like this:

i place a kiss in both my palms
and hold them to the wind
in hopes that someday you'll think of me
because the kiss has made its way to you.

she told the boy that it was a nice poem, and gave him a kiss on his cheek... he then proceeded to another girl and started reciting the same poem.

my sisters and i laughed and laughed. we all wanted to use this poem for our valentine's day cards... but in our enjoyment, we completely blanked on the poem. so our dad said "i'll get for you." and tonight, just 5 minutes ago, dad came up to me and recited the poem. hehehe... my dad is awesome.

ooh ooh!..
so it's not quite saturday but it's close enough. i just read my kuya's blog and his girlfriend's blog too... you know, from what i've read, she sounds pretty cool (yes kuya, i approve). and i know some might think this as anal but i love that she has no grammar or spelling mistakes like my kuya sometimes does! it's so nice on the eyes. yes, the teacher in me is shining through ;op. but yeah, she seems to be having a good influence on him ;o).

anyhow, i just wanted all 5 of my faithful readers (wait... do i have that many?..) to know that i'll be off to the sunshine coast this weekend... a little bit of rest and relaxation and partying before heading back to school. *sigh* spring break is over so fast! and i am so disappointed in myself... i wanted to hang out with my ate winnie this week. sorry ate!!! i'm slacking off on my chismis (sp?) time with her!! i'll make it up to her next week i promise.

and to all of my pirates, i miss you guys already! come back soon!!!

i gotta make the song cry...
i decided to get back to listening to the unmarked cds... ron, if you're reading this, i just want you to know that despite needing to do some real work, i'm going to avoid it (yes, i aspire to be like you!! ;op hehehe) just so i can label these cds! yeah, i'm not complaining... i love listening to music ;o). i could sit indoors and listen to music all day... of course, the weather helps too. it's been hella snowing here for the last 2 days, so i really wouldn't be able to do much else anyways. and i guess me possibly developing asthma doesn't help either. yeah i'm pretty choked (no pun intended). i went to a doctor at a clinic last week and he said i might have a sort of asthma, but not like a real asthmatic's type of asthma. so this week i went to my family doctor and he was more sure that i "may have developped asthma" after the last virus or cold i got. boohoo. at least hockey won't be too hard on me anymore since it ended last sunday... but there's still dragon boating (maybe)... and dancing... and karaoke! man, all them activities that require me breathing easily are really making me want to cry...

mr.cheeks
i'm listening to a song by him... "mamma said mamma said mamma said mamma said mamma said..." yeah it's pretty chill. ron brought me like 8 unmarked mix cds this weekend so now i get to listen to them so i can label them somehow. i'm on my 3rd one, and i'm getting all into it now... the first ones were actually from the last time he gave me unmarked ones so it wasn't too hard to get through them... but now i'm listening to this one and i'm all "what? jay-z? then some nas?!" for real, if these guys were all together on tour it'd be harsh "song fighting." you know, kinda like j.Lo (in her ain't it funny remix) and p.diddy (in his i need a girl). for those who don't already know, check out the lyrics to them songs... it almost brings tears to your eyes... almost. but yeah, i wonder how ruthless it could get. wonder if it'd be like eddy and neo talkin bout mike... oooh, and neo, i still think your "plan" is pretty tight ;op.

you three boys take care...

big tings
so i am starting to get into reggae... music and dancing i guess. it's a nice beat. and the words are awesome: "bombaklat", "the original dondatta", "boom-boom", "bum-bum"... the list goes on. and those are only the words i'd dare to try and spell! the rest i have no idea what is being said. i think i might start trying to understand it. but my gawd how do them girls move like that?! i can only do the basic booty shake for like 10 seconds then i get a cramp. do i gotta stretch or something first? and on top of that, there are other moves... how the heck does ANYONE manage to do that?! i wanna learn the matrix. my sister keeps trying to show me, but i have a feeling that losing balance and falling is not part of it.

emotions...
yay!! i fixed up my archive!... i guess that was the kind of "active" activity i needed... check it out tho. i am SO cool ;op

okay, maybe not.

don't you hate it when you got so much work to do, but you just can't get yourself to do it? i got a bunch of things to do, work and non-work type things, but i just don't want to be sitting down anymore! yeah, i know. and yet i'm sitting at the computer right now complaining about sitting... i need to do something active, but non-productive. like going out and spending money on food, movies, shopping... but everyone worth hanging with is so not anywhere near me! you all know who you are!!

jumpin' jumpin'...
yay! i changed the template! woohoo!... k, time for sleep...

foolish... bouncin' back...
hey everyone!!... or should i say "anyone?"... ok, so me reviving this blog is way overdue. i've been busy... doing things that would just sound like a really long excuse so i won't bother explaining. neo figured out how to blog and i have to say that got me back into it... check his site out, he's a pretty funny guy. that's all for now... although, i can't go on without shouting one to my kuya... he got me into this in the first place. he's the coolest. hi kuya!! ;op

the fifth grade
so the fifth grade looked cool. they pulled the dark curtains and turned on a multicolored disco ball. the food of choice was orange soda pop and shortbread cookies that looked like witch fingers. but the best part was the music...
"it's over, it's my turn now, it's over, the game's shut down... sorry!.." they were singing. then i heard the familiar beats of one minute man come on... "HOLD UP! who's cd is this?" i asked. "mine," said chanella, who was dressed as a movie star "but they're all clean versions, mademoiselle marion. don't worry."... sweet. then jlo and ja rule came on. then a lil zane song. man, these kids had good taste in music! i walked in and i felt like i was in a club, but with cleaner air, no alcohol and a better tempered crowd. and these kids could dance too!! and i'm not talking "vancouver special" here... i'm talking c-walking and that! they are gonna be cool cats when they get big.

hallowe'en parties
... remember having them in elementary school? you know, when the teacher organized who would bring food and drink and music, so you could all have your little party in your classroom with all your little friends... well, yesterday was hallowe'en and since i really didn't have any work to do, i party hopped. here's what i thought... keep in mind this is all very exciting for the little ones...

kindergarten - lots of candy. it's like they charge up for all year on this day.

grade 1 - games like musical chairs burned off their sugar intake. good thing too. they,d end up a lot like the kindergarteners...

grade 2 - cookies, doughnuts, and cupcakes! these kids are gonna be fat... lucky for them i helped them out by alleviating some of that off their plates ;op

grade 3 - jello jigglers, bite sized brownies and chips. yummy!!

grade 4 - not much of a party. i didn't get much food either.

grade 6 - all they listened to was n'sync. they so define the meaning of pop. i got a bag of candy from them though.

note i missed the 5th graders. that's because their party has to be told about in great detail... i gotta get back to work though, so you'll have to wait...

i'm in a bad mood
so i've been told that i should be flattered that more than one guy wants me. so maybe i'd be flattered by one or two (at most!), but the whole mess of others, i just wish i was as lyrical as TLC...

Now don't get me wrong cuz I'm not a ho
But I know what I got you can't handle though
...
Nigga you must be crazy
What you gonna do with a bitch like me
I'm so good at being bad
I'm the best you never had
I epitomize the word sexy
...
Sorry I turned you out
I guess I didn't know
That a man could be so soft
Hope that you don't mind
I'm not the mushy kind

(from i'm good at being bad by tlc)

i guess i feel a bit better now... >:o) i think i'ma go shoppin'!

gold is for the honey
so last weekend, our "compilation dragon boat team" a.k.a. A.C. UNITED went for our first competition together out in kelowna (this is in a beautiful area of british columbia, 5 hours drive from vancouver, near lotsa vineyards and orchards. needless to say, the weather was awesome). we ended up doing really well in our prelims and qualifying races. and despite some almost disasters, we got into the jade division finals... and took home the gold! i really really like this team. we took practically whoever wanted to go to kelowna from both my team (apocalypse) and our sister team (cylone... hence the name A.C. UNITED) and threw them all in a boat and practiced together for a month. i knew we'd be bringing home some sort of hardware, but i didn't think it'd be the gold. but what a great way to end off the season. if anyone from the team is reading this, i would like to say thanks for being there... we couldn't have done it without you! we rule!!

tony and tina's wedding
oh man this was funny! char invited me to go with her and len, ai, meesh, and some of meesh's friends... i took eric with me at the last minute, even though he saw it already... what a sport. i don't know of many (i mean ANY) guys that would do the "broadway show" type thing. and i didn't expect eric to be one... for all y'all that know who eric is, you understand what i mean, right? but we had a great time. the show starts out at a real chapel... we are acting as guests at this wedding, so we "attend" the ceremony. i don't want to spoil anything about the actual show, but that nun who sang madonna was just SO funny! after the crazy ceremony, we were led to the hotel next door for the reception. this part was highly entertaining, because there were actors everywhere. something was happening wherever you turned. the actress who was ushering us in had hecka attitude (i swear, ai got so riled up, she was gonna feed this chickie a knuckle sandwich!!). we even got seated with 2 actors at our table. i went to the washroom and ran into the hired entertainment for the wedding. she and her "husband" used to have a show in vegas, so their story goes... and the bride's ex was in attendance to cause a stir... each one of these actors have their stories down pat! it was great. if you want a really different broadway show experience, this is it.

audition?
that was what jac asked me when she found out that UBC's CVC club wants to have us perform for some multicultural evening they're running. we both found out last thursday that we were being put down to audition for this thing. they just want us to sing (and boy can jac sing!!) and pump up the crowd. so we went to the audition last night and sang from this moment by shania twain, even though we were both not at our best (jac had a cold and i am still recovering from yelling in kelowna), and we got it. we thought it'd just be a simple little thing, but they're expecting like 700 to 800 people to attend this function (comprising of students, rich people, sponsors, and politicians). wow. but then again, jac and i aren't really the shy types. maybe this will be our big break!!... popstars, watch out now!!!

where to begin?
the last couple of days have been something i (or anyone else for that matter) have never experienced in my life. tuesday morning
i woke up 45 minutes before my alarm to my little sister's radio blaring what sounded to be some news channel. i remember thinking
to myself "since when did sarah start listening to radio news?... i thought this was the pop station... at least be blasting music
at 7am instead of news!!". i was so grumpy that i didn't even bother listening to what they were talking about. i was robbed of an extra 45 minutes of sleep, so i decided that i should just get up and get a early start on my day. i walked into the kitchen and turned
on the television to check out the local morning news when i saw this amazing sight of the twin towers on fire... i thought it was
some movie, or some stunt... then i realized that it had just happened and i was staring right at what used to be the world trade center. i was madly trying to turn up the volume and change the channel to cnn when i passed the french news channel and then saw
the pentagon was in flames. i was like "what in the world am i watching? is this all for real?!" cause i couldn't believe what
i was seeing. when i finally got to cnn, it was only 5 more minutes til i saw the second tower collapse. my mouth just hung open.

i was so sure that all hell was going to break loose sometime during the hours that followed. when work was over, i (literally)
ran home as fast as i could to see what was happening next. i heard about the missiles hitting in afghanistan. that made me so worried. then i heard about bush wanting 20billion (i think) for guns and ammunitions and gas to hunt down and punish the "folks" that did this...

all i can say is that i am upset. i'm 23 years old. i still have big plans for my future. this event will put my plans on hold, and i am not pleased about that. even a simple trip to cali this october is most likely not going to happen... all because some crazy people who hate americans decided to accomplish the craziest feat of terrorism ever. damn.

what bothers me the most is that none of this will be solved anytime soon. everyone is angry, and we all know how poorly one
can rationalize with a hot head. i hope things simmer down, but i have a really good feeling that they won't. i also have a really
good feeling that this will change a lot of people, kids and grownups... whoever. the kindergarteners were talking about a big building
blowing up on television, and the 4th graders were already talking about how young you are allowed be if you wanted to join the army.

wait... what about canada?
all we've been doing the last few days was accepting airplanes diverted from the states, cuz the americans were worried that there would be more terrorists coming in... step back for a bit. canada is a country too... it has people and cities and ressembles america
in some ways. so if there were a bomb on the plane, wouldn't it have the same chance of going off in canada as it does in the states?
we may be acting as the big brother who can help out, but i wonder if the united states would do the same for us if ever this situation
were to happen up here. i only think this way cuz i know that when "it" happens, the united states will be using all its power to drag
us canadians to fight right beside them (if not in front of them!)... it's not that i don't think revenge is the answer (that
i'll save for another blog entry), it's just that there is going to be a war... so i'm just scared.

back at it!
yipes... i knew i had a busy august, but who knew it would take this long for me to write in here again?...

so today was the first school day for students and teachers everywhere. for me, it was okay. nothing special happened at all. all i know is that i wish it was still summer vacation. i'm already looking forward to the thanksgiving weekend (for the americans reading this, our thanksgiving falls on your columbus day).

friends
i remember seeing a poem that was hanging in a kindergarten classroom a few years back, and i really liked it. it described the meaning of friendship real well. i dedicate this poem to all my friends.

you are my friend.

you are special.

you are my friend.

you are special to me.

you, my friend,

i like you.

(it just brings tears to your eyes, don't it?)

like
it sucks when someone likes you more than you like them. as much as they think you wouldn't understand how sucky that is, take it from me, we do. that's all.

*tune in next time when i'm bored and decide to write about my august adventures!*