mmm... candy!

yum... breakfast!

bwaaah haaa haaa haaaaaaaa!

procrastinating

that's what i'm doing right now. i've checked and replied to my email, i've checked who's been stalking me on friendster, i've updated my thinking is hard to do blog and now i'm updating this blog. as much as i'd like to be going out shopping or spending my hard-earned money in some way or another, i'm going to stay in today. what i should be doing is go to the bank to deposit $ and pay some bills, but instead, i think i might make a mix cd.

yes folks, i've acquired an acute case of laziness and i think it's contagious!!

argh!

ok, so i had a bad week.

it was only so bad cuz it started bad, then went totally good, then horribly bad, then waaay better, then better again jus a lil bit, then it went to suck, then it went to SO good, then it ended off with argh!!

it was like a roller coaster: i just wanted to get off! people that i hope are reading this know that they were not the reasons whatsoever for the "bad" in my week. you guys were totally the reasons this week was any good. i appreciate you... thank you.

HOWEVER, there is ONE person, who i know only reads my blog sometimes, who could really be one of the reasons why this week ended off the way it did. to YOU i say: thanks. thanks for making me realize the kind of person i DON'T want to be like. you were acting like a complete baby, and i expected a bit more maturity from you. call me when you grow up.

on that note... i'm off to bed.

craving

i need some music. it's like my ears are so hungry, they're starving. i'm almost finished with a mix cd (which is STILL in dire need of a title), and i'm hoping i'll be playing it in heavy rotation in my boom box... or in anyone's boom box for that matter. it's not that i doubt how good the cd will be... it's just that with music nowadays... well, i feel like it's been so iffy since after 2001. and i can't make a really good mix cd that i'm proud to give out unless i know that the music is the best there is at that point in time. there have been, and still are, the good artists, thank goodness for them. much like how i look at men, i'm more attracted to music with something intelligent to say instead of having just something to say. dig?

another season ended

yes my friends, the dragonboat season for rgl united has come to a close. i now can focus on stuff other than yelling at my friends for dragonboat. i can just yell at them for fun now! but seriously, i can't explain how much i enjoyed this season. not since my first year of dragonboating have i ever had such a blast. i think in this '04-'05 season my team only had about a handful of o.g.'s (original gangstas) but the newbies made the whole team fit together like tetris. props, you guys.

as for this past weekend, well, kelowna has always been a favorite festival of mine. and getting to meet and host albert's team from toronto was so cool. tempest is a comp team and you know what? i like that. i mean, after watching their first race, the only thing i could think of was "damn they're fast. i wanna race them!". of course people thought i was crazy to think united would even compare (we're rec), but just to be able to see how we fare up against them would be so neat. my dream came true in our second races of the day cuz we DID get to race them. man, it was cool... maybe even exhilerating... they beat the pants off of us. however, WE placed second. i thought that was quite an acheivement for us, especially compared to how we were in the beginning of the season. i know i'm just a caller, but i hope our team decides to be a bit more competitive next season. i would really enjoy it.

aside from festival stuff, things that highlighted the weekend:
- bonding with the girls ("hold my gold!" and "deuce deuces")
- buying fruits at the side of the road
- the gorgeous waterfront property we rented for the weekend
- costco dinner
- meeting and greeting tempest
- team naps under the sun
- hitting up the mission hill winery
- inter-team bonding: eating at the best chinese restaurant in kelowna (dragon inn)
- more inter-team bonding: clubbin at "gotcha"
- getting hyped for our last race by dancing the "team dance" in front of tempest
- seeing a wheelchair with rims (i wish i had my camera!)
- ice cream!
- keeping with tradition: a&w stop in merrit on the way back home

and after not being able to recuperate from the weekend, sleep will be my plan for today.

shout outs to my...

NEO!!
cuz you're my #1 blog fan, i'm sending this post straight out to you. i miss you too, man. and i can't wait to see you either!! and same goes for annie. when you gon come up to canadia and kick it ol' skool witcha homeys?.. we're waiting. :o)
there's a couple pics headed your way... and no, we're not nekkid.
*hugs*
mario and annie

sleep?

this past weekend was sleepless. the highlight was my 10 year highschool reunion on saturday night, then the "post highschool reunion" dimsum the next morning. and of course, the big cheez: the guy i had a crush on since he first walked into our 8th grade english class had said that he had a crush on me in highschool! i know, i felt SO 15 years old for a minute. but yeah, even though it was just a highschool thing that probably wouldn't get anywhere nowadays, it still made me smile/blush a lil. overall, the night was a success. and for all the grads that were too cool to come out, too bad for you. there'll never be another one like it!

bonne nuit?
i DID get my sleeping a bit back to normal tho... and last night i had a strange dream. it was all in french! i was speaking in french to french people in paris... so strange...

spontaneous in seattle!

i had a really good weekend last weekend. just kicked it with some good friends. i mean, things didn't work out like they were originally planned, but everything turned out even better. van and kiwi both decided to come and meet up with me in seattle where we took over ron's crib for the weekend. his place never looked better after we were through with it. now, there's at least some place to sit! i'm sure we'll be stopping by more often now that we know there's a blank canvas of an apartment out there for us to decorate. thanks ron ;o)
there were a lot of highlights: the friday grocery shoppin extravaganza, the saturday "let's get ron a chair or anything!" target shoppin madness, and the sunday outlet cruisin (they even have a "christian outlet store"!). and we managed to hit up a club and a fancy japanese restaurant and get a almost free keg dinner in there too! i'm really, really happy i decided to go. it was good times, no? ;o)

oh my achin head!

well, it doesn't ache so much any more, but after counting up the hours of sleep i had this weekend, i'm surprised i'm already back to normal! las vegas was hilarious. 4 days, 3 nights, and maybe 9 hours was spent sleeping. my girls are crazy (and there were 8 of us in all!). we ate 5 buffet meals in 3 days, we hit up a club (sometimes 2) every night, we shopped the primm valley outlets very well (we needed a cart to get all our bags to the van!), we all got tanned, and everyone each had at least one moment immortalized in time thanks to the digital cameras... not like i'll post THEM shots up!.. like they say, what happens in vegas... hahaha, yeah right! what happened in vegas was some good old fashioned retarded fun. i like the fact that the only times i've ever been to vegas was for a stagette... who's got next, girls?

for my fans

... haha, yeah, i'm still imagining things. check it out: my profile

what we all really need...

... is a *big hug*.

i needed one a couple weeks back and when i finally got it, i felt a lot better.
i know that it's not even a real hug, but with my little virtual hug, i hope all of you who need it feel at least a little bit better. i'm thinkin bout you.

did you brain your damage?!

i really don't know how to say this. guys can be amazingly smart. but likewise, they can be amazingly stupid. now i'm sure that the guys reading this are rolling their eyes and saying "oh here she goes AGAIN!" but hear me out: it has nothing to do with any guy that is reading my blog. for real. you guys (the very exclusive and select few of you that there are) are way above this one guy's mental range. so please read on.

let's call him RS. he's a photographer, he does shoots for certain sporting events, he's got a decent makeshift studio in the basement of his parents' "vancouver special" house, and he's working on his portfolio for his little side business. he also has a girlfriend (who is 7 years his major) and they've been in their relationship for about 3 years, sex with each other being a part of only the first 2 years. she has issues where she thinks she's turning to sex just to make herself feel better... she doesn't wanna be like that so about a year ago, instead of changing her outlook on sex as a way to express her love to her significant other, she decided that she just wouldn't do it at all til her and RS get married. she told him if he wants to do other chicks because she's not putting out, she's cool with that. yeah... what the hell?!! that relationship is SO not healthy... i mean come on. if you're not seeing eye to eye (especially with topics you might rate high on your priorities list), you should really figure things out... and if it's still not up to your standards, just break up with the person already! don't make your situation the excuse for your actions.
now that's RS's life all in a nutshell... and apparently that is the reason why he HAD to act the way he did with me. see, we were shooting in his studio for this thing (i can't specify this), and he felt that this meant that it'd be cool for him to cop a feel. très unprofessional. i, being the classy lady i am, told him that the photo shoot was over and politely refrained from wrecking all his cool photography equipment. he proceeded to tell me his sob story and i was so surprised at how stupid and selfish he was acting. like common sense wasn't an option?! as if i wouldn't notice a guy trying to get at me! but for real... is he insane?! this could be a really big deal and he could really get into some serious shit (i cuss because that's how serious it is!)... endanger his job, his business, his reputation (if it was any good to begin with)... all because he went all horndog on a model. that's pretty pathetic.

i'm gonna write a letter to the people he works for (that i know of) and let them know that "RS should be relieved of his duties because he's gotta find a way to get laid by his girlfriend. until then, it would be unwise to let him be in the same room alone with anyone (female for now, but you never know how desperate he'll get) if his penis is in charge. thank you for your time. sincerely..."

planet asia

no, this name has nothing to do with planets or asia for that matter. i have no idea why a rapper would name himself that. however i guess i should do a bit more of a background check on him to understand where he's coming from. what i DO know about him is that he's from south central california, and he is all for keeping the west coast in the "rap game". now you give me one west coast rapper who is not overly proud to admit to his west coast heritage. i feel that the "rap game" IS kinda vain like that. "shout outs", "hollas", "props"... it's always been like that.
but i digress...
i went to the planet asia and afu ra concert at sonar last thursday. it was actually supposed to headline with inspectah deck, but due to whatever reasons it might have been, he got held up at the airport in vancouver. i think he couldn't even make it to any of his other canadian shows. anyways, after planet asia's set, he ended up kickin back and sittin right beside where me and my friends were at. he was hilarious. to every girl that passed by him, he'd reach out and take her wrist to pull her up to him and get his mack on. it was funny, cuz it happened to a blonde girl, then an asian girl, then a brunette... i was so impressed at his confidence that i turned to my friend and said "dude! i wonder if i walk past him if he'll grab my arm too!"... see, i'm not saying that i wanted to get picked up by him. them girls looked like they wanted to go home with someone that night. i was rollin wit my homies so really, i didn't need anymore testosterone. i jus thought that it'd be funny to see if, lookin plain as i do, i'd make the "cut". so yeah, i showed my friend exactly how i'd do it, pretendin to walk past with my arm extended, as if i'd be expecting him to grab it... and while we were giggling, planet asia turned to me, looked me in the eye and said "i can hear what you're thinkin!"... i was busted for clownin on him!! it was so funny. then i went up to him and was laughin cuz he pulled me close so that the brunette wouldn't here him say "you wanna know what i'm doin? i'm jus bull shittin... that's honestly what i'm doin." he was a funny guy. and as my friend said, i'm lucky he wasn't all diva bout it.
and that's my story.

a good cause

boy, is it ever hard being on a dragon boat team. it's like you put in so much time and effort, and despite it being a fun athletic and social activity, we are almost always in the red... too bad fundraising is the only way to bring us back up to 0. it gets harder and harder to get a turn out for the "club nights" we host. do i ever wish that people who just wanna go out and have a good night of dancing would just come to me and say "wow! would i EVER love to go out dancing and at the same time support your team!"...
verbally works, but if you holler via the comment link, that works too...

thursday, june 30th
plush nightclub
12$

holler atcha girl... if you feelin' this yo

when will it end?!!

when i wake up monday mornings, i usually don't freak out that the week is gonna suck like most people. i only work 4 days a week so really, it's already 1/4 of my work week on its way out. so by the end of tuesday, i'm pretty happy cuz wednesday and thursday are a breeze. but this week is going SO slowly. i feel like even though it's the last week of school, it won't end! we're still finalizing reportcards. we're still testing kids on their math skills. we're still trying to get back all the library books the kids haven't returned yet. at least the weather's pickin up.

a shout out to my kuya gary

why does kuya always seem to have to put up all the "bad" photos?.. it's like he doesn't think the good ones are enough! anyways, as much as i'd love to tell you how much my kuya stinks, i won't. he's still a pretty nice guy. like this whole weekend that just passed, i thought he was gonna be a complete diva. not like he's gay, he just likes to be the "prince" when he's up here. i mean, my mom loves him so much that what ever he wants to eat, she'll cook it. chicken adobo, particularly. but yeah, he wasn't as bad as i thought he might be. and plus he let me take photos of his performance on saturday night. i love takin photos. it was a great opportunity for me... i've never shot more than 200 photos in a two hour time frame. that was pretty fun. so yeah, i guess kuya is cool cuz he lets me play with his toys.

small world

so, my cousin and his wife came up to visit this past weekend from san francisco because their dance group, likha, was performing with one of vancouver's filipino dance groups, kababayang pilipino. i must say i had a really good time meeting and hanging out with all of kuya's dance friends. they're a bunch of cool cats. so are the kp dancers... and i even knew a handful of them already! i guess that's what happens when you're filipino and live in vancouver. if you don't already know them, you will. so that wasn't so tripped out, cuz it was kinda expected. but what was tripped out was that one of the guys from likha actually knew one of my best friends... and they had even kicked it together at one point in time (to my understanding). but yeah, i guess it works the same for them: they're both from the bay area.
now the pressure's on for me to join kp. i know kuya wants me to join likha... but i think my commute would eventually end up taking its toll on me. ;op

argh!

so i was having a good chat last night with a friend who will remain nameless (now and forever) and despite our downs and ups, we still try to see through it all and embrace each other's differences... yeah who am i trying to fool? i try to embrace his differences and i STILL am the one with the short end of the stick. ANYHOW, i must say it was a really good talk. i really started to understand things about him. and i felt like he was starting to see things from my point of view. no yellin or anything. yeah it was a real kodak moment... too bad he ended up just forgetting what the hell we were talkin about. i swear, if you forget deep, meaningful conversations like that, get your head checked. chances are you're only remembering what you WANT to remember. i don't have time to build upon a friendship when all it ends up being is a figment someone's imagination. and this isn't jus me talkin. anyone who's had a good conversation and then the person you were talkin to says "i forgot everything we jus talked about" would feel this way too. don't waste your time, there's a lot more you can do with your life... like getting a cavity filled.

on the other hand...
i did have a really good conversation with another really good friend... and it turned out good. and it's funny cuz if i didn't decide to forward some silly "forward" to her, i don't know if i woulda had that conversation with her today. i must say, not only did i need it, after the retarded one i had with "forgetful jones" last night, but also cuz she and i can relate really well with our lives right now... i mean, both of us aren't in great situations at all, but at least we both see it in the same way. it's good to know that someone's there right beside you in the pile of mess, feeling just like you do, instead of being outside lookin in.

conclusion
boys don't listen. take it from me... they're nice to look at and fun to play with... but if you talk to them, somehow the words coming outta our mouths turns into that muffled trumpet sound that charlie brown and his peanuts gang hear coming from all the adults in the cartoon. so unless the guy you talk to likes brass instruments, just don't bother talkin to them.

boys

the big question is: what to do with them?
we can have several answers to this question but let's try to sum it up in just a few...

- we can love them
- we can leave them
- we can love them, THEN leave them (yeah, like leave them in our wake!)

i think that covers most answers in a fairly broad sense. if i'm missing any important parts, just holla in the comment box.

the topic of boys is currently pickin at my brain cuz... well, i've been out of it for a couple years now (at least). and now, situations arise... and while the "old me" woulda known that option 3 was the ONLY option (yeah, i was EVIL to guys), the "present me" is a totally soft boiled version of the "old me", where there are options 1 and 2 now in the mix. it was easier back when i didn't give a damn about guys' feelings. they always thought they could get me, but little did they know that i was a commitment-phobe! i guess that's what made it easy. now, i can totally picture commitment (not right away, but like eventually in a relationship), but nobody is lookin at the same picture as me. harsh!