speaking of dresses, penelope cruz has really great ones in that movie of hers called "woman on top." too bad that movie licked. if you haven't seen it and don't want to know what happens, skip the rest of this blog. but i don't suggest watching it anyways. this story is about a girl who needs to control everything that's happening to her otherwise she'll get sick. literally. she meets a guy and they get married but he's a real macho type man. he likes to be in control. this guy ends up cheating on her because when they have sex, he can't be "on top." i find that kind of weak but hey, i didn't write the screenplay. she predictably runs away and tries to start anew. macho man chases her down and tries to win her back and she tells him she doesn't love him anymore. i thought by this point in the movie that she was just going to do everything she wanted... be independant and all. and it looked like it was headed that way. but by the end of the movie, she succumbs to her macho husband's charms and actually goes back to the guy. it doesn't really live up to the title i guess. maybe it was a sarcastic title...
Thursday, March 22, 2001
Monday, March 19, 2001
Saturday, March 17, 2001
so how do i look?... thanks to kuya for making my blog work again... and for putting up a pic of me so people can see me in my natural state (yes, phone and all!!). but why must it be THAT picture? as long as you're alive, that photo will haunt me, huh? curse you and your webcam!! ;op kidding!! but if anyone turns into stone, it's on YOUR conscience not mine!
anyhow, tonight i brought jason out to meet a few of my friends. we went to this japanese restaurant in richmond... the company was good but the food was debateable. that's all i'm gonna say about it because even the thought of complaining about the food quality makes me a bit ill. needless to say, i've been drinking gingerale since i got back... that was almost 7 hours ago.
earlier today i had to work at the college, so i was downtown. on my way back home, i was on the bus and it was packed. i was standing in the front trying not to step on peoples' feet or elbow them in the face. but there was this one man who just ticked me right off. he was standing behind me with his back to mine and he was leaning on me. yes, his ass was pushing up on me! YUCK. as if i were some sort of pillar to support him!! i was so not impressed but instead of shoving him off of me, i decided to move up a bit into some space that just cleared up. i was soaked from the rain and really tired so getting into a confrontation would just put me in a very bad mood. it worked out for me because aside from him losing his crutch, the bus started to move and he damn near fell over. i don't care that he was an old man and could've fallen on his ass. he was invading my already very small personal space. besides, it could've only been worse if i had more energy. i'd have turned right around, waited for him to fall, help him back up, then thrown him back down... "fallen and can't get up? well next time, i'll break your hip!!"
yesterday, i had some vietnamese food with sabby. gotta satisfy that craving! but anyone who likes it knows there's just something to that food. it's like drugs. you just crave it like a junkie wanting a hit. imagine that: "hey man, i just need a hit... just one hit of pho!" kinda like the mcdonald's french fries effect. you eat one then before you know it, you're friend's supersized fries are gone. i swear they must be lacing the frying oil with cocaine or something.
tomorrow... wait, i guess it'd be today.... anyhow, i'll be at the movies watching "enemy at the gate" with jason. oh yes, for those of you who have just started to read about my mundane life in vancouver, jason is such a great guy. i met him at the college we both work at and i had a crush on him since he first said hi (draw parallels to jerry macguire NOW). this is the same guy i went with to the van deusen botanical gardens when we jumped the fence. neil is his much cooler twin brother. now before anyone gets all up in my face about that last sentence, let me clarify. i say jason is cool, but neil is cooler. jason says i'm cool, but that annie is cooler than me. therefore, the "cool" twins hooked up and all is well in the world... well, all would be perfect in the world if the "cooler" twins hooked up but i'll leave things like that to the fates ;op ... i'm so excited to see the movie! i'll review it in my next entry. sleep right now would be good...
Thursday, March 15, 2001
neil and linda invited jason and i to playdium last night. it's this massive arcade in the metrotown shopping centre. it was so fun! i killed so many bad guys with all sorts of weaponry... automatics, revolvers, sniper riffles, machine guns and tanks. soon after came the racing games. and then i had to play the dj-ing game to see if i could cut it on the one-twos. that i need to practice, that's for sure. but a good oldie that i always gotta hit is the dance dance revolution game. shoot, that game is just so fun. we all had a really great time. but was i ever braindead on the way home! i still can't hardly stare at anything for too long or else my eyes turn it into pixels. you gotta love the joys of computers :o)
Friday, March 09, 2001
- clean my room
- do the laundry (which i really don't desperately need to do)
- surf the web
- eat
- go to the gym
- go shopping
all these things that involve staying inside. i really need to get into the outdoorsy mode. and it's not even that i'm lazy. i just don't have any ideas! maybe i need to surround myself with people who know what to do in the sunshine... or maybe i just need to move to a place that's almost always sunny...
Thursday, March 01, 2001
6.2
that's the magnitude of the earthquake vancouver had yesterday. a lot of buildings swayed but barely anything broke. some people (including yours truely) didn't even feel it. i was with a bunch of hyper second graders at the time so i really didn't notice the extra movement. but seattle was a complete wreck! i think it hit at 7.0 down there. the "big one" is coming.
on a completely different note, i went to safeway the other night and i saw a girl that looked just like phuong! i was so shocked. i was staring at this petite asian girl, with a short haircut, wearing a long camel colored wool coat (it reminded me of phuong's camel colored "robe-ish" knit sweater), and these super cute shoes that have soles that look like warty bumps... you'd know them if i showed them to you. but my goodness were the ressemblances eerie! her height and build, the way she walked... this girl's lips even looked like phuong's! if i heard this girl speak, and it sounded like phuong, i would have totally gone up to her and said "hey, are you related to phuong?" creepiness.
Monday, February 26, 2001
today is the third, or even fourth day in a row that it has been just amazing weather for us in vancouver. with all this sun (and my allergies in full swing) it feels like spring! but i don't want to jinx it. watch, it'll end up snowing again by thursday. well, i hope it won't.
yesterday, i thought it might be a nice day to stroll downtown, with the sun out and all. but it ended up that jason and i went for a walk around kits... it's a fairly yuppy area, kinda like where my kuya lives in san francisco actually. it's near some (over-priced) shopping but a little walk from there gets you to the planet-arium (ever watch south park?.. hehehe funny episode, that one), a couple museums, and the area where our dragon boat practices are held. then we walked along the water, towards the beach. what's really neat in kits is that you can look right across the water and see downtown and the beach on that side. from where we were, downtown looked busy with people, families enjoying the sunny sunday afternoon no doubt. it made me happy that we decided to stay on the vancouver side.
today i should be at the college. i would usually go, but my head is just fat with pain. why i'm at a computer is beyond me. i should just be sleeping. but believe it or not, i am closing my eyes as i type... talk about skills ;op hehehe. the only thing that sucks about this sudden beautiful weather is my allergies. as long as i survive it with minimal drugs, i will be just fine.
Tuesday, February 20, 2001
i hate not keeping up to date with this thing. now i've got sooo much to say!
okay, let's start from the night that i last wrote. i was over at jason's house tapping away while guests were slowly trickling into his living room. he was having a little get together and i was being a little bit anti-social. no matter. after the blog, i ran upstairs to meet some of his friends. then neil arrived. he's jason's cooler, better-looking, and more charming twin brother. and the fun didn't stop there! a few minutes later, annie and chris arrived. now imagine, two sets of twins at one party? yes it was entertaining. i was seated in between jason and neil and do they ever sound alike! annie was on the other side of neil and i think the idea of "stereo sound" was not too far from his thoughts. that was a fun evening. there's just no comparison to being a twin... people like us are just born cool.
on valentine's day, i had to go to the elementary school. oh, the kids were so cute! there was even a kid who bought his girl a huge heart-shaped box of chocolates, and his buddy bought a pot of tulips for the girl he liked! when i asked them if the girls actually liked them back they both said "yes, of course!" so i asked what the girls gave them, and they answered "well, we're too young for kisses, so they gave us hugs. big hugs." now, what can i say to that? these kids are in the fifth grade and are sweeter than the majority of guys i know!! if you are a guy who is having girl problems, and is older than 10 years, take note of this. you might learn something!
my highlight of valentine's day at school has got to be the candies and cards i got! the one i like the most was this cute card that had a bumblebee on the front and in a heart under it was written "BEE my valentine!". i just love that card! it reminds me of the simpson's episode where ralph liked lisa and gave her a card that had a train on it and said "I CHOO-CHOO-CHOOSE YOU!". hehehe that is just too funny.
but i must have had the best valentine's day evening ever that night. i spent it with my favorite twins, feasting on chinese take-out and watching the ManU game (which was horribly boring except for one or two minutes of it) instead of temptation island (which wasn't on that night... aw shucks. no, i am not a big fan, they are). it was a good, lazy evening.
friday night, i hit kits pub with jo and victor to support something that slips my mind at the moment, and it was fun. now, no offense to any caucasian people, but that evening was the "hip hop and r&b" night... and just watching them dance made it hard for me to keep my rythym! heehee, i'm just joking! it was just that i was on a dance floor with only 2 other non-white people. i think it's the area that the pub is located, but i really just felt like i was back in victoria (there is a higher caucasian population there than in vancouver... out of my experience, that is). after getting warmed up, jo, victor and i went to palladium. now this will be the last time i will mention myself going to palladium. the evening was nice, there was a lot of people there, and of course, the music was just sooo good. but i realized that i knew a good amount of people there. that is not a good sign for a clubber. for goodness sakes, i saw craig in the vip line! for as long as i knew him, he did not like clubbing at all. he hated it! that has GOT to tell you something. as jo foretold the first time we hit it, "i give it 2 weeks. after that, it'll be so mainstream and the crowd will consist mainly of children born in 1980. that's when it'll be over." so it is. *sigh*
but let's get back to updating. on saturday i went to a play at the gateway theatre in richmond called "mom, dad, i'm living with a white girl." it was a comedy but the ending was so serious. i found it almost extreme. i'll get into it in a later entry.
sunday was great. i got to practice calling for the dragon boat team i'm on. it was fun. i just got to sit at the front of the boat, yell at the paddlers to go slower or faster or at least to the beat of my voice. i'm pretty much the metronome. and i think i'm rather good at it. but after all, i AM filipina. we're born with rythym!
so my updates are getting a bit thin... sorry. i'm just sooo hungry now! i'll fatten them out later :o)
oh yeah, this is all updated for the sake of my kuya gary. happy now kuya? ;op heehee
Saturday, February 10, 2001
ANYHOW, here's where it gets a bit interesting. i asked in my previous entry a question about what guys really want from a girl when they meet her. well, i found out the answer from the guy that sparked this question for me. as usual, i will not state his name but if he's reading this, he'll know he's the loser i'm talking about.
he was at the club and i really appreciated that he got me and the girls in, but once i got the chance, i asked him what his intentions were. he was honest (at least) and told me that he really wanted to get to know me... you know, like finding out my likes and dislikes, finding out what i do for a living, finding out how it is to make out with me... yes, he said that. i told him that was not my definition of getting to know someone (in particular the last part), but i told him that i thought he was a nice guy and that he'd better end the conversation before something makes me realize that he isn't a gentleman. then it went something like this:
"stop acting that way." he said.
"like what?"
he held my face in his hands, looked into my eyes and said "like a bitch."
"EXCUSE ME?!"
"like a bitch."
"don't make me slap you..."
he took his hands off my face and held his arms out defiantly "slap me if you want to. you're a nice girl and i'm a nice guy, and i just want to get to know you. so don't be a bitch."
i figured i might have been being a little bit harsh so to end the conversation, i decided to be civil and comply. "okay fine, i'll call you sometime." (note this is me giving the ever so popular "benefit of the doubt." maybe he really wasn't a jerk and he just had too much to drink. maybe he really wants to just know me for me, and not want to get into my pants. yeah, MAYBE.)
he looked at me in an arrogant and doubtful way and spoke in a tone that sounded as if he meant to diss me. "yeah right. no you won't."
at this point i just about had it with this clown and put my hands on his shoulders and made sure i was at an arm's length away from him. "and you still doubt me" before he could say anything, i slapped him. "fuck you." and i walked away.
no it wasn't a hard one, but he got the picture. i think i was just tired of him talking like he knew exactly what i was supposed to do. he made me feel like he wouldn't be able to trust me with him, like all i really wanted to do was jump his bones or something. now, if anyone has seen this guy, "bones" is the word to describe him. he probably has a thinner waist than i do. and yes of course, he's ugly. so if he really thought he had a chance with me, he sure is a bit full of himself. and plus, nobody calls me a bitch and gets away unscathed. i just told him what i wanted and just because it didn't fit into what HE wanted, i am by default considered a bitch. my definition of bitch is as follows: somebody who feels the need to complain (or blame others) when they can't get their way. i think we know who the real bitch turned out to be.
Monday, February 05, 2001
as i type this entry, i am still in pain from the previous evenings. i couldn't even go to hockey last night! i was supposed to go to sunpeaks in kelowna this weekend for some snowboarding, but i couldn't get out of work. even though i am dying to use my new boarding gloves, i think it's good that i didn't go. it's been a year since i've touched the mountains (and injured my knees), and now i know why the doctor told me that it was only a "maybe" that i'd be able to board this season. my knees are not holding up as well as they should be (but maybe dancing all the time has something to do with it). oh well. i heard sunpeaks was icey this weekend anyway.
ooh, one interesting part of my weekend is that i just found out that i have a friend that didn't cover "the trail" well enough for himself. it's in that friends episode when ross slept with the photocopier girl and he didn't cover "the trail" of people that might know about his little fling soon enough or well enough. rachel found out and she was quite upset. i think that when people find out what's going on with my friend, he is so toast. what do they call it? the shit's about to hit the fan?... hehehe.
before i go, i must tell you what has been on my mind all weekend: what does a guy really want when he calls a girl out of the blue just to "hook up for tea or coffee"? i can't help but feel that the guy is hoping for a little bit more. i want to know just what is that "little bit more"?
Sunday, February 04, 2001
last night we heard that the same dj was playing at purple onion. so of course, i went. and of course, they weren't there. the crowd was more like i expected a purple onion crowd to be like, lots of youngins and lots of people who can't dance. oh well. i've said it before and think i will finally stick by it: i will not go to purple onion if they claim they are playing hip hop. their dj sucks.
Thursday, February 01, 2001
so i guess this isn't the most tasteful way for me to express my happenings, especially the not so nice ones, but i will anyway. anyone who has a problem with it can kiss my ass.
the not so nice happening that i will tell to you is actually not so bad... for me anyway. for the person on the other end of the stick, well, i guess it IS not so nice. tough.
i guess this all started in the summer of '93. i was in a grade 11 physics advanced credit summer class. it was me and a few of my good highschool girlfriends that were taking it all together at our highschool, sir winston churchill secondary. there were 3 guys in our class that came from vancouver college, the all boys highschool. we got to know them and we all hung out that summer. some of us girls (yes including me) had harmless crushes, but no serious thought was put into it. i generally thought they were pretty nice guys. looking back on it, i still think they were fun times. then again, maybe i just miss the laziness of being a teenager. regardless, the summer went by and we thought we'd never see those guys again... and for the most part we didn't. except for one.
to keep it simple, we'll call him "j.To"... kinda like jennifer lopez' new nickname "j.Lo" hehehehe.
now j.To would be spotted every so often after summer school ended... at the mall, driving downtown, at the movies... pretty much anywhere. and yes, every so often if i did get to talk to him for more than a few seconds, we'd somehow manage to exchange digits so we could all hook up "like a reunion or something." well, he wasn't a horrible guy or anything. so i thought.
let's zip through from then to now. as of probably 3 years ago, when i was running into him at least once every summer, there was a weird cycle that was going on. i'd run into him, we'd talk over coffee or a snack, then he'd be calling me every other day, constantly asking me what i was doing on the weekend. i know this might sound vain of me, but i'm assuming that he was wanting to ask me on a date. most times i'd decline, so i guess i really wouldn't know for certain, but on the few incidences i accepted, i felt like he was trying to take our friendship to a higher level. after seeing him in person about three times -- running into him, having coffee with him, then finally accepting to go to some social scene with him -- i'd always feel this compelling urge to just cut all ties to him. there was just something too creepy about him. plus he's mayabang. so that's how the cycle would run, ending with me just not returning his calls and starting again the following summer with us accidentally running into each other.
i guess i was a dork to think that every year he'd be a bit improved, but he didn't and hasn't. i guess it was just too nice of me to think he would. so finally i did something about it. last summer, i swore to myself that if the cycle ever happened again, i'd end it properly.
so i inevitably ran into him sometime in the end last summer. we went out for coffee. we even went to a club i like called sonar. then the creepiness began...
he bought me a blue paul frank hoody that he knew i was going to buy. when i heard this, i figured i didn't want it that badly anymore. i didn't accept it.
he made me a mix cd that he thought i'd like, full of gushy mushy love songs. i liked two songs on it. but knowing it was from him just made me want to move to a different country and change my name. i tried to return it to him at his work, but he wasn't there. so instead, i gave it to sabby. she likes it good.
he invited me to "grab a bite to eat" with his friends, saying it'd be just a casual get-together. it ended up i was invited to a christmas dinner, and i felt like his date. i didn't like that so much.
all the while, he'd be telling me of the "hookups" he's got on almost any line of clothing i'd want. he gloated about how his uncle was going to buy some new bmw and that he was going to drive it down to cali for him or something. i wasn't listening really. either way, this part was a bit tiresome and annoying. something was going to happen soon.
when i got back from san fran this january, he called. i ignored. he called again. i was "too busy" to call back. yet again he called. my voicemail was on the fritz (thank goodness). then i finally decided to talk to him, but he says he had to call me back. that's fine i thought. then about 8 minutes later, i get a call from sabby saying that j.To wanted to meet up with her for some tea, to talk about me. then j.To calls me back saying that he's just gonna chill at chapters and read a few magazines. hmmmmm.
sabby tells me that his whole plan was that he wanted to "rekindle" any feelings that i had for him so long ago. the only reason why he never talked to me about it was that i never seemed to give him a chance to. ummm, let's recap. i had a harmless crush on him in the 10th grade. that was 8 years ago. he must think that he has a chance because i just got out of a relationship. i don't think so. to any girls reading this, let me give you a tip: ignoring a guy doesn't work if all he honestly thinks is that you've been busy washing you hair for the last 6 months. they just won't get it.
so tonight, i pretty much told him that he was a dork to even think he had a chance. i finally told him that he doesn't impress me and that if anything, he's only been successful in not impressing me. i think i might have been mean, but i also think that it's pretty stupid of him to think that i am just all nice.
Wednesday, January 31, 2001
Saturday, January 27, 2001
Friday, January 26, 2001
my mom just arrived in the philippines this morning at 730am (like 1130pm their time), and my dad called and was like "where's your mom?!" i was all dumb saying "she left for work already" and he was all "are you SURE she's at work?"
"yeah.."
"are YOU SURE she's NOT in manila?"
"uhh.. yeah..."
"are YOU SURE she DIDN'T TELL YOU that she was coming to the philippines?!"
"dad, why you trippin?!" (okay i didn't really say that but it was along those lines... but if he understood it i would have ;op )
he answered "she just called me! i haven't seen her yet but she said she was here!" and i was all "...uhh.. surprise!" and i was laughing and he was all in shock! then my dad's real self came out...
"who's staying there with you?! are you watching your sisters? don't stay out late! be careful driving!.."
it was so FUNNY!! my mom ended up calling me 10 minutes after i hung up with dad and she was all giggly. she was so impressed with herself that she succeeded pulling it off. i think they're both at one of my tito's weddings right now, as i type. i'm so happy they're there together.
Wednesday, January 24, 2001
anyways, i'm also really happy to say that i've finally finished knitting the scarf i've been meaning to give as a christmas present to my best girl sabby. if you're reading this sab, i told you it was going to take a little bit longer than the other scarves i gave the other girls! i hope she likes it. knitting is actually quite easy and i think i did it well... but if anyone wants me to knit them a scarf, you'd better put your order in now so it'll be done in time for next christmas!! ;o)
Tuesday, January 23, 2001
now, back to the daily grind.
Monday, January 22, 2001
it's really neat. it looks like a cotton ball, but softer. and instead of cotton, it's made of really fine strands of sugar rolled around a crushed nut filling. the candy maker makes it right in front of you, and when he's pulling the sugar strands, you can see where they came up with the name dragon beard. this used to be made only for the emperor of china way back in the day for his big parties and banquets. nowadays, it's made during the chinese new year festival and other big occasions.
the line ups for this candy are always so long, and it looks like the poor candy maker makes it all day (the grounds open at 11am and go til midnight!). plus it looks really laborious. to make a little box of 6 candies takes a bit less than 8 minutes, and people buy at least 2 boxes at a time. so even if you only have 2 people in front of you in line, ordering only 2 boxes each, you'll be waiting about 30 minutes til it's your turn. hehehe... i ordered 6 boxes for me and my friends. see, the key is to hit the dragon beard candy first, and take turns standing in line with your friends. those who aren't lining up just walk around the grounds to see what they wanna see. by the time the first few are done, they can line up while the second bunch can go and hit the festivities. yes, that's how long the line takes but it's worth it.
Sunday, January 21, 2001
i am so beat... (yes, like rodney king). my dance workshop was good. i learned a couple new moves and even a dance routine. well, the dance routine kinda sucks in the beginning cuz there were some people who didn't quite like the full time tempo, so we had to cut the whole thing into half time. but the rest of it was cool. we danced to the best music too!! the instructor had us dance to the theivery corporation and some other stuff... ninja tunes was it?... anyhow, it was good music.
afterwards, i hit the club with the girls and we had a good time. the girls especially had fun. they all don't hit the clubs often, so when they do, they always get a kick out of dancing and seeing what crazy things happen to me. for example, last night we were dancing and there was a guy who was dancing up to me. he didn't say hi or introduce himself and he was getting closer. just when sabby thought i was going to say hi to him or something, i turned around and said "i'm sorry, did you want to pass by?" and i moved out of his way as if he wanted to get through. the girls were laughing (they had already had a few... and two of them had eaten nothing before coming out!) and he got the hint and turned around and went back to his friends. good thing too, cuz later on that night we all saw that guy groping like two other chicks. yay for women's intuition ;o)
the dj was cool. it was same guy that usually plays at wettbar on saturdays. two of the girls were just creaming over him. he was mc-ing at one point and telling people to imitate his "cool" dance for free drinks. i thought this was hilarious cuz he was doing some sorta funked out running man thing. sabby was like "mer, you can do that!!" so i did... and i got a free drink! it was so funny. i couldn't stop laughing even when he was handing me the drink ticket. he was like "that girl's got it!!... here you go, you deserve it!". i must have looked hilarious cuz the rest of the girls were killing themselves laughing too! i gave my ticket to my friend cuz it was his birthday on thursday. imagine how i'd be if i did drink!!
Saturday, January 20, 2001
anyhow, i went to a "dragon boat" meeting tonight (dragon boating is kinda like having 12 people paddle a canoe). there's the dragon boat festival happening this summer where we're going to compete in a race against other boats. our team is getting organized so we can hit the water in three weeks to start practicing. i'm really excited about this. sabby and cin and jo were really into it last year so they got me interested in it... of course, i'm not wanted for paddling skills... they needed a caller.
the role of a caller is pretty basic. i keep the boat moving by yelling at the paddlers to keep paddling. the requirements for a caller are: lightweight (cuz i sit at the bow.. that's the front of the boat, right?), loud voice, and rythm. i even get a drum to beat!! that in itself is so cool! i hope i can do it though... watch, i'll run my paddlers like racehorses and in the last leg of the race, they'll all just keel over and die. hmmmm. i'd better think of some tactics...
i am so happy about this weekend. it's very productive already (woah... i think i had a horoscope that said that this weekend would be really productive... creepy!!)! tomorrow, i'm hitting a dance workshop. it sounds intense and i'm so hyped for it. it's going to be hiphop (i'll be hitting the other dance styles in the future) and i am so up for a good workout. i hope it isn't disappointing. at least if it sucks, i'm stil going clubbing later that night. then i can really "git ma groove on!"
plus, i got my hockey on sunday night... oooh i haven't touched ice in a month. even if i'm rusty, it's all good. the team we play against is the same team i've already scored on... so maybe i'll do a repeat! woohoo!