am i so bad?

it's not that i'm typically lethargic or lazy. i just don't feel motivated to do anything anymore.
i think i'm just down.
lately i've caught myself saying "i need some time to myself... right after i finish..." a lot.
seriously, if god put me on this earth to accomplish things, at this rate, i'll never die.

things i wanna be thinking about:
- dancing and music.
- arnis and kung fu.
- dragon boat (can you believe i've been so busy that i missed TWO whole meetings already?!! i wonder if they're already deciding to cut me :o(.... noooo!).
- getting back into school.
- cleaning my room.
- blogging!

things that are preventing me to think about the previous list:
- work.
- relationships (with everyone around me).
- previous engagements that i can't get out of but i really want to.

although the second list is shorter, it does cover more area.

i think my emotions are best described by a certain comic strip character who never seems to have a good day. it goes something like this:

*ARRGH!!*

on the corner of georgia and howe

that bear is always there offering his fish! how can you say no?

don't you hate it when you feel sooo overwhelmed you're not even sure what you gotta get done?.. yeah, i'm not super overwhelmed, but i've got things to do and they just keep on piling up... i feel like i'm gonna forget something. i honestly can't see farther than this friday. maybe i'm tired. i went for acupuncture today and i think i'm still too relaxed from it all.

and here i am, just bloggin.

our birthday pics

yeah i know, it's about time. but they're here now... i don't wanna hear any complaints! ;o)

i would've taken pics of the rest of the food, but it was gone in a flash. mind you, our birthday is usually 1% for celebrating our age, 99% an excuse to get our friends together to eat all our favourite filipino food.

sabz and baxter

oooh, so cute!

our "nice pose"

our "silly pose"

the sisters

good times.

sometime in late november...

remember i was telling of the foggy weeks we had been having?.. yeah, this is a pic from my upstairs window. creepy!

if anyone asks, yes, he's mine.

this is baxter at almost 4 months. he's a sweetheart. i'd tell you his story, but it's a long one.

i'm a little girl... but i carry a big stick!!

this is me with my small kali class. my kuya louie (bottom left) is our guro. he was asked to participate in a new book called GUARDIANS OF THE LEGACY, which will be distributed internationally and launched this july at the 2006 FMA festival in the philippines. i'm so proud of him. ooh, it's all so exciting!

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i was gonna post something yesterday. i didn't get a chance cuz i spent the day at the seattle premium outlets. when i got home i was already more than tired. and now i'm up and awake... and i forgot what i was gonna write. oooh, but at least i have something to write for my other blog.

check it out.

yay!

okay, so i've got pics from my weekend/week so i'll post them up when i get a bit less lazy. like later. i need a breather. i'm done with all my christmas shopping, baking, and wrapping... now all that's left is my dance performance tonight and i'll be all chill.

i swear if anyone needs a good cardio regimen, just take up dancing. any kind of dancing. it's more fun than pilates and you get just as great a workout. i kinda wish i could go back to ballet, but i can't seem to find my old dance company. oh well, i'll search. oooh, which reminds me... mike, i'm going to get back into kung fu now. well, i guess after christmas eve and new year's eve... sorry for the delay!!

i think i'll watch elf again today.

go shorty!

... yes, it's my birthday. and i partied like it was my birthday... on friday, and saturday (sorta) then i kinda recuperated on sunday, then today annie and i went out and renewed our licenses (they were due today!) and tried to get things for free... mind you, even tho the free things on your birthday didn't work to well (we got nothin), there's still denny's. apparently we can score a free meal! yeah i'll try after dance rehearsal.

and kuya, the pics of my party will be up later. i'm not finished partying yet!!!

finally!

it's the last day of school til january... and i'm so excited! it's annie and my bday party tonight and we'll be partying til the early morn. i hope i made enough food...

it's just barely 745 am right now so i'm going to get ready for work. i'm actually not going to work so that i can work... i'm going there to party it up with the kids. we have games and stuff til noon then we're outta there for the break! woohoo!

k, lots to do... i'll be writing more soon.

by the way, long division isn't so bad. just think: multiply, subtract, bring down. repeat as necessary. monsieur yap actually made up a song for it... yes, it's quite silly, but he's proud of it.

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this morning is not a particularly good morning.

the first email i read was from a friend that is not going to come back to vancouver (from toronto) for the holidays. dammit. i think it's been like 2 years since i've seen him last. i guess i'll have to visit out there when the weather warms up to the positive side of the thermometer...

then that kid i usually tutor at 10am saturday mornings shows up with starbucks... but at 1050!!... seriously folks, i don't mind the attempted bribes, but she already did that last week. it's tired and the fact that she still doesn't practice her long division when i ask her to makes every saturday more and more repetative. her being late is at least a bonus then... that way, she only stays with me for 40 minutes of long division madness.

i also missed arnis. i better catch up this winter. lots of gym time for me :o)

HOWEVER...
i managed to send out the evite for annie and my birthday party. woohoo! that always feels good. i can't wait til the party! i'm gonna start my cooking prep this weekend.

and i'm going to do some serious christmas shopping with my buddies... i'm done with most of the major shopping... just getting things for the kids i tutor. maybe i'll give them homework for christmas!! hahaha i'm mean!

to top it off, it's a sunny day today.
this afternoon is definitely looking up :o)

it's that time of year again! *hip hip HOORAY!*

no, not the holiday season...

it's report card time!! *hip hip... BOO!*

due to the fact that i have to finish up my reportcards, my blogging (... and arnis, and kung fu, and working out... among other things!) has waned dramatically. and i had a couple neat-o pics of the foggy days too. i'll post them later i guess.

alright, enough procrastinating, back to work.

pea soup?

i once heard that saying "the fog is as thick as pea soup" came from england. now if i were british, i might say that of the past weekend. we've had fog here since saturday. and it isn't just as thick as pea soup. it's like everyone decided to cook rice all at the same time... this cloud of rice steam just hasn't let up! it's wednesday already!! maybe later i'll go out and take a picture of the street and hopefully that will aid any of the "visualisationally impaired"... ;op

i'm going to do my laundry now.

d.d. for life

it's 1013 right now.

i was at the royal (a hole in the wall club on granville street) last night.
by 2300 my friends all ranged from tipsy to drunk.
suprisingly, they played that jamiroquai song! (yes, i danced.)
we left by 2oo.
despite 4 barf stops, and numerous drunken arguements (among them... i was just laughing at them), i managed to get three of them home safe.
i got home at 4oo this morning.

i woke up at 915.
i expected to start tutoring math at 945 for 2 hours.
my student is not here.

i am tired.

nothin left for me to do but...

You know this boogie is for real.

I used to buy my faith in worship,
But then my chance to Heaven slipped.
I used to worry about the future
But then I throw my caution to the wind.
I had no reason to be care free
No no no, until I took a trip to the other side of town
Yeah yeah yeah, you know I heard that boogie rhythm
Hey- I had no choice but to get down down down down.

Dance, nothing left for me to do but dance,
Off these bad times I'm going through just dance
Got canned heat in my heels tonight baby

I feel the thunder see the lightning
I know this anger's heaven sent.
So I've got to hang out all my hang-ups
Because of the boogie I feel so hell bent
It's just an instant gut reaction, that I got
I know I never ever felt like this before,
I dont know what to do
But then thats nothing new,
Stuck between hell and high water
I need a cure to make it through.

Hey- dancing nothing left for me to do but dance
Off these bad times I'm going through just dance,
Hey got canned heat in my heels tonight baby
You know know know I'm gonna dance yeah
Off all the nasty things that people say.

Gonna dance, gonna dance my blues away tonight
Dance, come on got canned heat in my heels tonight
Canned heat in my heels tonight.


i got to teach music all day today. the usual music teacher is great, but i really like it that i get to take over when she gets sick. i'm not the type to adhere strictly to the lesson plan she leaves me, but today was good. we got to listen to a bit of reggae and some jamaican stories, and we got to learn a bit about jazz and ragtime and marches. then, of course, because i'm in charge, i play a bit of the "hidden beach recordings" to the kids if they're good. jazzed instrumentals of hiphop songs is so intriguing to them. they actually listen to the music, the instruments. it's really neat how music affects the kids.
the last time i had a chance, i pumped them up with the beatles "white album", then i asked them the songs they knew off of jay-z's "black album", then flipped it around by letting them listen to the "grey album"... that floored them. they couldn't believe that sort of mix could happen. so good times.

i am so happy. i think i will dance!