so ron likes buying things online and addressing them to me. and the cool part is i always get these packages when i least expect anything. there were a couple mix cds from radio stations in the bay... a tshirt, tuque and apron with the words got adobo? on them (it's like got milk? pinoy style)... and today was the latest installment of things addressed to me... a couple books of sheet music! and not just ANY sheet music.. one was alicia keys and the other was the tupac shakur collection. yes, the tupac makes for an interesting sound... especially on the piano. but hey, music is music right?.. but yeah, thanks ron for brightening up my day. i swear he can read my mind ;o)

full moon
ever heard that song?.. it's funny how when you hear a song (especially one you like) you automatically try to relate it to your life, just to see how close it comes... kinda like horoscopes or psychic "predictions," even though the only predictions they predict are things that already happened.

dang
i just had one of them "reality realizations"... it's about my job (but i guess it could be for any job). well, in my case, i figure i am too inexperienced (or rather too nice) to do it properly. i get too tied up in the fact (or should i say dream) that i could make a change in the world... you know, help kids wanna get smarter. dammit, i wish i didn't worry about the children i tutor. but that'd be like saying i'd be fine if they grew up to be rude and impolite and close-minded... maybe head down the path that leads straight to everything their parents don't want them to grow up to be. if my sister or dad got a chance at doing my job, they would be quitting more than educating. i think that's where both of them are alike. they'd both say "if you don't like it get out" and not give two shits about what could happen to anyone else if you quit. not like i carry my job on my shoulders that severely, but it's hard to be in a line of work where you're just supposed to help little kids, but their other "parental figures" just seem to be countering all your efforts... wait have i complained about this before?...

choclair
this is one canadian rap artist that really needed to grow on me. he's got some good beats on this latest album of his (the memoirs of blake savage), but i still have a special place in my heart for let's ride from his last album. and that's all i have to say about that...

poppin' collars
yeah so my weekend was crazy busy... i really need to just learn how to sit back and chillax... well, it'll happen one day but not today.. or this weekend. the weather just started picking up today so, despite my allergies or any other medical conditions, i'm gonna go out and enjoy it. more about my weekend in a little while... yeah i'm just THAT busy ;op

this blog was especially updated for my kuya... happy?... ;o)

yay!!
now i have a comment system! now all of you who read this blog can identify yourselves to me!!

props out to kuya, randell and uigui :o)

k... let's see if this works...

i'm not normal. i thought i just had a breathing problem, but the doctor needed to check and see if there was anything else that could be contributing to it. so he took my blood to test, and luckily i don't have anemia. but now he doesn't know what the deal is with my breathing. tune in next week when i fill you in on the new prognosis!

going back to cali
yeah, i think so. in may. i'm so excited!! and my kuya had better not be out of town when i get there...

it's friday (hey!) and i'm ready to swing...
sabby and i got our nails done wednesday after work and talk about claws! damn our nails look good! my esthetician is awesome. but what a chore it was to get used to them. wednesday night i couldn't type faster than a 2nd grader, but now i'm back to par... tonight sabby and i are going to a dragon boat fundraiser. i think the team's called m-power... yeah, they got a bmw dealership to sponsor them. anyways it's at that infamous club purple onion that i'm always complaining about. well, at least the company is going to be good. tomorrow i'm going to take my little cousin rafael to watch ice age. we're both the last of our friends who hasn't seen it yet (funny, his friends and my friends are like 14 years apart!). then we'll eat lunch, then play some ps2... woohoo! talk about some good fun... and i just love that i don't work on fridays!

dammit
i can't find a working reblogger! i'm going to bed.

how come you don't call me?...
friday, i was doing my usual thing, trying to figure out which lakad* i should do first... i had the option of going to the arts county fair at ubc to watch swollen members, baby blue soundcrew and choclair perform, or to purple onion where dj jazzy jeff (yes, as in the one with "the fresh prince") was spinning, or to legends for the grand opening of this hiphop night (fabulous fridays). the arts county fair i couldn't attend cuz i ended up having to work in the afternoon... poo. and the peeps i thought i'd hit purple onion with ended up being too inebriated from the fair that they couldn't make it out. so my super crazy friday ended up with me relaxing and dressing nice so i could go to legends with sabz, rick and biggie. it wasn't too bad for the first night. it's a bit classier than the old starfish gig we used to always hit (good times, good times!). but even before that, palladium was the place to be... ahhh, now those were the days.
anyways, after the club, i pulled out my phone to check the time and what happened? the tip of the antenna broke off. i don't have to tell you that i own a startac. yes the antenna's crap, but i have to say that mine is one that lasted for almost 2 years. funny, i think it's just on the first couple digital startacs that the antenna is not as solid. at least i still have an antenna... now it's just stuck inside my phone. other than that, i really don't have any big complaints. i'll just have a harder time getting reception in those "barely there" reception areas.

(*lakad litterally means walk... in this case, it means plans ex. "anong lakad mo?" translates to "what are your plans?"... dig it?)

troubles...
i think i'm going to take voice classes. i've found that with my hopefully temporary lung problem i get short of breath most after i'm running or talking. yeah yeah, laugh if you will, but it's true. i just talk that much. the thing is, i want to have the right breathing technique so when i sing, i won't get so short of breath too. i came to this conclusion after i went to karaoke last night with the usual crew. yeah, my singing was pretty hurt for someone who doesn't usually sound so bad. argh, it looks like a long road for me... a.k.a. the girl who was built like a ford...

i g-g-g-got it...
k, i think that's the name of that jagged edge, jd and nas song... but yeah that is one good song. it's got that infectious beat that makes you wanna just dance. i was rereading my last blog entry and you know, the way i wrote it really reflected how my weekend felt. now that i got some music on, i think i can write a bit more enthusiastically. it's real weird how music can just influence your emotions so easily. well, it does that to me...
so yeah, i'm in the middle of discussing with ron about going to cali in may. well, i've actually had to discuss with several people about that... lots of us want to go, but we just can't get in synch (woah, i used the term "in synch" without having to refer to the boy band!). hopefully everything works out... we'll see. all i know is that i gotta visit my kuya out there. i haven't seen him since august and that's already been too long! i used to go down there all the time, but now time is a lot less free for me than it was last year. it's kinda sucky but i guess it balances out in other ways...

...
so this past long weekend was pretty sedate. i guess it being the holy-est part of "holy week" is the only explanation i got. i almost forgot that fun was supposed to be a big no-no for the whole week, not just from thursday til saturday. see, waaay back in the day, the thursday before good friday (a.k.a. holy thursday) was when jesus had his last supper, so we (as in catholics) have to be real solemn that day, cuz jesus knew he was going to die the next day... that being good friday, where we are supposed to not have any fun, cuz we gotta think about jesus dying for the sins of man. as my friend aimee put it "it's a day when you think about what you've done, and what you're gonna do about it." well, either way, those two days are the most unexciting, unfun days of the whole year for a catholic. i don't really mind it cuz it ain't so bad that we gotta just stay at home and chill... everyone lives such fast-paced lives nowadays, that taking a day or two out really doesn't hurt at all. besides, sunday was easter so we all partied it up. i got to hide eggs for a little easter egg hunt for my little cousins and some other family friends' children, then we all ate a big dinner. as for today, i went shopping with my friend ivan... i just bought a plain white gap t-shirt. i figure if i want to go clubbing, i usually just want to wear comfy clothing anyways. add some blue jeans and my cortezes and ta-da... another classic outfit!