okay, so contrary to what i said before, i controlled myself and didn't go to zara yesterday. good thing too. i'm dying to get an ibook so i shouldn't be spending my hard earned cash on dresses that i look great in. there'll be other dresses, later on in the season when everyone is already set in the trend... okay maybe i can buy one dress.

speaking of dresses, penelope cruz has really great ones in that movie of hers called "woman on top." too bad that movie licked. if you haven't seen it and don't want to know what happens, skip the rest of this blog. but i don't suggest watching it anyways. this story is about a girl who needs to control everything that's happening to her otherwise she'll get sick. literally. she meets a guy and they get married but he's a real macho type man. he likes to be in control. this guy ends up cheating on her because when they have sex, he can't be "on top." i find that kind of weak but hey, i didn't write the screenplay. she predictably runs away and tries to start anew. macho man chases her down and tries to win her back and she tells him she doesn't love him anymore. i thought by this point in the movie that she was just going to do everything she wanted... be independant and all. and it looked like it was headed that way. but by the end of the movie, she succumbs to her macho husband's charms and actually goes back to the guy. it doesn't really live up to the title i guess. maybe it was a sarcastic title...