argh!

so i was having a good chat last night with a friend who will remain nameless (now and forever) and despite our downs and ups, we still try to see through it all and embrace each other's differences... yeah who am i trying to fool? i try to embrace his differences and i STILL am the one with the short end of the stick. ANYHOW, i must say it was a really good talk. i really started to understand things about him. and i felt like he was starting to see things from my point of view. no yellin or anything. yeah it was a real kodak moment... too bad he ended up just forgetting what the hell we were talkin about. i swear, if you forget deep, meaningful conversations like that, get your head checked. chances are you're only remembering what you WANT to remember. i don't have time to build upon a friendship when all it ends up being is a figment someone's imagination. and this isn't jus me talkin. anyone who's had a good conversation and then the person you were talkin to says "i forgot everything we jus talked about" would feel this way too. don't waste your time, there's a lot more you can do with your life... like getting a cavity filled.

on the other hand...
i did have a really good conversation with another really good friend... and it turned out good. and it's funny cuz if i didn't decide to forward some silly "forward" to her, i don't know if i woulda had that conversation with her today. i must say, not only did i need it, after the retarded one i had with "forgetful jones" last night, but also cuz she and i can relate really well with our lives right now... i mean, both of us aren't in great situations at all, but at least we both see it in the same way. it's good to know that someone's there right beside you in the pile of mess, feeling just like you do, instead of being outside lookin in.

conclusion
boys don't listen. take it from me... they're nice to look at and fun to play with... but if you talk to them, somehow the words coming outta our mouths turns into that muffled trumpet sound that charlie brown and his peanuts gang hear coming from all the adults in the cartoon. so unless the guy you talk to likes brass instruments, just don't bother talkin to them.