am i so bad?

it's not that i'm typically lethargic or lazy. i just don't feel motivated to do anything anymore.
i think i'm just down.
lately i've caught myself saying "i need some time to myself... right after i finish..." a lot.
seriously, if god put me on this earth to accomplish things, at this rate, i'll never die.

things i wanna be thinking about:
- dancing and music.
- arnis and kung fu.
- dragon boat (can you believe i've been so busy that i missed TWO whole meetings already?!! i wonder if they're already deciding to cut me :o(.... noooo!).
- getting back into school.
- cleaning my room.
- blogging!

things that are preventing me to think about the previous list:
- work.
- relationships (with everyone around me).
- previous engagements that i can't get out of but i really want to.

although the second list is shorter, it does cover more area.

i think my emotions are best described by a certain comic strip character who never seems to have a good day. it goes something like this:

*ARRGH!!*

on the corner of georgia and howe

that bear is always there offering his fish! how can you say no?

don't you hate it when you feel sooo overwhelmed you're not even sure what you gotta get done?.. yeah, i'm not super overwhelmed, but i've got things to do and they just keep on piling up... i feel like i'm gonna forget something. i honestly can't see farther than this friday. maybe i'm tired. i went for acupuncture today and i think i'm still too relaxed from it all.

and here i am, just bloggin.

our birthday pics

yeah i know, it's about time. but they're here now... i don't wanna hear any complaints! ;o)

i would've taken pics of the rest of the food, but it was gone in a flash. mind you, our birthday is usually 1% for celebrating our age, 99% an excuse to get our friends together to eat all our favourite filipino food.

sabz and baxter

oooh, so cute!

our "nice pose"

our "silly pose"

the sisters

good times.

sometime in late november...

remember i was telling of the foggy weeks we had been having?.. yeah, this is a pic from my upstairs window. creepy!

if anyone asks, yes, he's mine.

this is baxter at almost 4 months. he's a sweetheart. i'd tell you his story, but it's a long one.

i'm a little girl... but i carry a big stick!!

this is me with my small kali class. my kuya louie (bottom left) is our guro. he was asked to participate in a new book called GUARDIANS OF THE LEGACY, which will be distributed internationally and launched this july at the 2006 FMA festival in the philippines. i'm so proud of him. ooh, it's all so exciting!